September 2010
1 post
May 2010
1 post
“I guess I just got lost
being someone else.
I tried to kill the pain,
but...”
April 2010
2 posts
“Did you say it? I love you and I don’t ever want to live with out you. You...”
– Meredith G.
Tick-Tack.
I’m like the ticking bomb.. TICK TACK TICK TACK TICK TACK, which is closer and closer to explode. Which in time wont be able to hold back all the anger, sadness, fear, madness.. TICK TACK TICK TACK. I cant scream, I cant run away… I cant even cry anymore. Its driving me crazy.. Plus today the memories of u were haunting me even more than before… I truly hate April.....
March 2010
46 posts
It could be just like heaven
I’ve been thinking of everything I used to want to be I’ve been thinking of everything Of me, of you and me This is the story of my life (These are the lies I have created) This is the story of my life (These are the lies I have created)
Do you live, do you die, do you bleed For the fantasy? In your mind, through your eyes, do you see? It’s the fantasy
One day, maybe...
“Because ure so mine”
– P.Z.
“Living is easy with eyes closed.”
– The Beatles (Strawberry Fields Forever) (via fuckyeahbeatles)
Sometimes I hate living but Im too afraid to die.
I dont mean depressed like your dog died. I mean where you feel like youve got nothing to lose where you dont, you dont care if you live or die. That kinda of depressed. You ever been there?
When I am gone, you will all have this to ponder and maybe realize why I did what I did. A little push in front of other kids is a very big deal, particularly when you know it’s gonna happen to...
“I’ve had to say good-bye more times than I may have like, but everyone can...”
“You and I were different. We came from different worlds, and yet you were the...”
– The Notebook (via anditslove) (via fullmetaljackson)
Literally… I miss you so much..
Hole
I experienced way more during last 2 years than during all my existence. And it took away an enormous piece of me and I will for sure spend the rest of my life to fill that hole. I feel terrible, cause I’ve gotten more out of this relationship than you and shouldnt be like this… It was supposed to be totally different.. It all went so wrong.. so fucking wrong.. But there’s...
I gotta do something...
Ive always been a disappoitment for everyone. YOU, my family and friends. Stupid pathetic failer, with a big dream of being ‘great’ about doing something ‘more’, to make some change, to bring hope and happiness, to put smile on faces of others. To be a good person. But I couldnt put those dreams into action. I swear I had tried… Id tried and tried and tried, but Id...
You dont know
S: Yeah, but I tried, I tried hard.
R: Try harder!
S: Yeah, but you don't know, you don't know!
R: I don't know WHAT?
S: Yeah, you don't know what is like when you try, and you try, and you try, and you try, and you don't ever get there! Because you were born perfect and I was born like this, and you're perfect!
R: Oh, is that right?
S: People like you don't know...
R: People like me?
S: People like you don't know what is like to get hurted. Because you don't have feelings. People like you don't feel anything!
Imagine there’s no Heaven It’s easy if...
“I need a lover I dont have to love, to make me forget, to make me not to...”
Tell me why...?
It just hurts too much to write about it…
You know me
You know me… You so fucking know me…
You know me and understand me more than I do… More than anyone have ever done.
You realize Im really hard to figure out, but you always figure me out so easly.
Im an open book for you. I have no idea how I feel about it.. Its really strage on one hand.. but its amazing.. its scares me but also fascinates me.
Ive been thinking about the...
“I really want to see you
Really want to be with you
Really want to see you...”
– G.H.
“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work...”
– Noah Calhoun (The Notebook) (via darkpantomime) (via rewindandremix) (via softerpillow) (via clnvl)
-sighs-
dadgoneit:
You can change the world Michael...
Long enough to last...
I promised myself not to think about past today but I cant..
I miss you so much Your light, your smile, your way, and everything about us Though you’re gone, you’re still here In my heart, in my tears
It wasn’t long enough, it wasn’t long enough… Together… But it was long enough, it was long enough… to last forever… Sometimes I get so mad; I scream...
Carpe diem
I dont know why… But she brought me so much hope today.. I have so strong will to put my life back together and take everything as it goes, not thinking about past, cause there’s nothing I can do about it… I cant fix my mistakes up, or erase things which had already happened before. I made a move forward and I gotta keep going, cause time doesnt wait for me, cause the world didnt...
“Here’s the truth about the truth. It hurts. So we lie.”
– Dr. Meredith Grey (Grey’s Anatomy) (via isthatscaryforyoubaby)
I was too tired and too weak to fight for us...
I wake up, it’s a bad dream, No one on my side, I was fighting But I just feel too tired to be fighting, guess I’m not the fighting kind.
TRAUMA ALWAYS LEAVES A SCAR
Final goodbye
I dreamt about you… It was very weird dream, but it meant a lot to me… I found ur last.fm account at my friend’s list and then I saw the request from you. I accepted it, knowing that u wouldnt know that its my account, because I began to listen to different music after our break up and I didnt use my own pic. So I thought it would be a good opportunity to have u back in my life...
Je ne veux pas la fin de nous
It felt like I had always known you And I could swear Id dreamt about you All those endless nights I’d been alone It was like I’d spent forever searching Then I knew that it’d been worth it With you it felt like I was finally home Falling head over heels Thought I’d known how it felt But with you it was like the first day of my life Cuz you left me speechless When you...
Listen
THANK U FOR OPENING MY EYES LORD
The rest stays between us.